Okay, seriously though...I am really changing. I can can feel it. It is almost too much to put here. Me, myself, and I...Is it normal to be in your early 30s with a few kids and husband and start to really think a lot more about who in the heck you are? Cuz that is what I have been doing. Starting with becoming more self-assured.
To wrap up a big one and open it up for you: I am who I am and I need to quit selling myself short. I do that, you know? I always have.
"Oh yeah, so dramatic." It is sayings like this that ruin us. We can be who we are and not be dramatic. We can feel what we feel and not need justification. We can say what is on our mind and not be wrong! We can love ourselves and not be judged. We are people. We are loved. God accepts and loves us for who we are.
"I do not need to earn my keep." Did I know that? Well, I am learning that.
I am the oldest girl in a family of 7. I am a caretaker. I love taking care of people, places, animals, things. I do it. I do it well (self-assured). But?
Okay, if you are a wise woman, you know my 'but'...
But, I want to be valued for being someone other than a caretaker. I want to have fun. I want to accept myself. Bottom. Line. Yep. I. Am. Doing. It. Again.
I am so so so grateful to God for the path He has led me on.
You know, God does not need fancy. He does not want pride. He does not want perfect. He wants unity. Grace. Love. Faith. He wants us to be happy.
You know what I want for my family? And friends? For them to be happy. But, just as God handles us, it is not my job. That is something I have to let go of.
Where is all of this coming from? A lot of work on myself with wise people and with God in my heart.
My goal in life: Quit criticizing. Let go. Do not judge. Accept. Work with others. Be kind. Share God and Jesus.
This is sort of new for me. But I know it is the right way. It is the less stressful way of life. I want others to trust me and know my heart is true. Therefore, I want my heart to be true. I want to be true to myself - that is the starting point.
I feel better. How about you?