Sunday, November 27, 2011

Take 2

I have another post that I may or may not publish.  It is so boring!  All about how burnt out I've been.  Basically it sucks.  Tired would describe me and why I'm not here much lately.  I should be in bed and when I'm not, my time is precious and I am picky about where I spend it.

So, a quick sentence or 2 on each of the boys and some pictures to show the good ways of spending the little time I get with them.  Makes me sad...okay, here it goes:

Evan is doing well.  School is great.  His teacher emailed to tell me he is doing well and is a nice boy.  That is all I ask for - nice!  The Lord knows teachers appreciate that!

Nolan is loving daycare and his playtime with the kids there and also with Evan.  Sure, he pokes and prodes and pushes buttons.  Nolan is so sweet as well!  He is now in the process of wearing a mouth-gaurd looking thing from the dentist whom has the hope that it will pull his lower jaw forward.  He wears it at night and a couple of hours during the day.  However, the daytime is tough because "I can't talk!".  Nolan is, as I've said many times, something so special to me.  They all are, but he is just exactly who he is and does not analyze it.  Unlike me...

Calvin is doing okay.  Sleep still sucks.  He had an ear infection 1.5 weeks ago and we go to the ENT on Tuesday.  Cal is moving around like crazy.  Standing longer, making lots of noise, and starting to get up from sitting more.  Not yet pulling up but soooo close!  He is the perfect little brother!

Ready for a jillion pictures?
Kitty, then pics at my parents for Thanksgiving.  Of course we were celebrating the Packer Game as well!
Here you go, Cousin Adam.  Peace offering?
Ah, forget that peace offering, I'd rather keep violating your personal space, I mean face!
Cousin Adam is 9 months younger than Calvin - he's a big boy, ready to take on this intruder!
A little hot chocolate for my Tiller.
Ev was very proud of his work at school.  He was happy to wear his "state of american" costume.  I worked on that one...
Very little helps my mood like fresh pine, a crackling fire place, music, time as a family, beautiful colors, and ornament memories.  Welcome Christmas.  I love celebrating Jesus!
Calvin did not help decorate this year but he enjoyed playing near us!  He left the tree alone.  I wonder what next year will bring?
Off to a busy week...bummer :(

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Happy Heart

I had to fill out some paperwork relevant to Cal's health this past year.  I needed to look up the address for Children's Hospital in Minneapolis.  Looking at the photo on the web made my heart skip and my breath deepen.  I felt exactly what I was feeling one year ago.  Dread, hope, exhaustion, relief, you name it.  Calvin underwent his open heart surgery last November 15th.

I have a huge appreciation for that place; the doctors, nurses, and all the other players in his success.  Calvin is generally such a healthy boy.  I can remember the daily drag of heart meds, pushed feedings, lack of nursing, etc.

It wasn't until after OHS and the start of our nursing relationship that I started feeling more accepting of Cal's Ds diagnosis.  I cannot express enough the importance of his healthy heart.

In life there are 'before's and 'after's.  When we received Cal's diagnosis prenatally, there was a 'before' in our family.  I felt more security and freedom.  In my mind I had lost a lot when I found out about Ds.  Now I guess I live in the 'after'.  But as they say: "Happily Ever After"  In other words, the happiness is found in the after.  I believe that is what it is like after life as well.

I try not forget God in my busy life.  I tend to get really lost in it all until a challenge rears its head.  I guess that is what I appreciate most from them.

In reality, I can honestly say I am could be defined in a 'before' and 'after' Cal's diagnosis.  I am not the same person.  Many people in Cal's life aren't and I find it amazing and humbling to reflect on.

I choose to meet Calvin where he is at today.  A boy with a healthy, full heart.  A boy with goals and ambitions (goes from room to room in search of a desired person or toy or plain old curiosity).  A boy with love to give (pats our backs, flashes his smile, leans in for a snuggle).  A boy with the ability to open hearts and change minds.  He is so much more and I am grateful he is healthy and capable of showing us who he is.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Slightly Silent Saturday

We had a good, busy day.  We enjoyed some unusually warm November weather.  Calvin woke up once last night!  God knows what I need!
He moves all over the house.  He gets into things and makes messes.  It is great!
Mr. Meowy disappeared about 3 months ago.  This little girl showed up about 1.5 months ago.  She is a kitten and has grown a lot.  She is supposed to be outside, but gets let in for a few minutes here and there...She tolerates the kids really well.  Nolan pulls her tail.  Calvin grabs her fur and skin.  She did a nice job and brought a dead mouse on to the deck.  She is earning her keep!  Oh, and her name?  Cowie.  Not my creative doing.
This is my brother Jason.  He was in charge of the boys (including his own who is Nolan's age).  Evan ran in the house, "Come see, Jason is climbing a tree!"  He was about 25 feet up...
Jason and his son, my nephew, monkeying around...
The best part of today?  This picture was taken mere moments before this boy somehow knocked my camera into my lip, causing quite the large bloody, purple gross bottom lip.  Joe definately does not want to kiss me much right now.  I'll have to post a picture.

The pumpkin bars were awesome.  Keyword?  "Were".  Calvin even approved!