As I begin to think about what I want to write, I remind myself of what it sometimes feels like to read other blogs and hear words from other parents. I will admit to you I can feel like there is a fair amount of insensitivity in bragging.
When you have babies, you are often surrounded by other people having babies. Sisters, brothers, friends, co-workers, neighbors, you name it. We are not apart from that. I have nieces and nephews very near Cal's age. I have many friends who have had babies close to Cal's birth date.
Let me back up. When I was pregnant with Cal and found out about his diagnosis, something changed. I felt a loss. I knew I was pregnant. My stomach could not lie. I felt him move around more than his brothers. He was there, screaming, "Notice me! I am about to change your life"! Yet, as I looked around and saw other popped out tummies and heard women talk about their babies, I could no longer relate. Call me dramatic, call me what you will. My life was not going to be the same as I once thought.
So, going back to my point (thanks for reading about my many points, I hope they are not too sharp)...I NEVER want anyone to ready what I write and be hurt. I NEVER want ANYONE to think I am only thinking of Calvin and not of the other children who struggle and/or work so much harder than him. Hell, I never want anyone to think I do not think of the fact that I HAVE Calvin. He is alive!
Dang, here I go again, getting off topic. Calvin has been doing well, for him. And, this is not about winning and competing, as there is plenty of it elsewhere. I am not interested in his life becoming someone's game. Hell, he is not my game. (Okay, enough 'hell', I am not a swearer, but sometimes it is necessary to express my feelings, damn it - had to add that for my dad).
Seriously, could you just get to the point? My blood sugar level is low, I need some dessert...
I am trying to say that my feelings get hurt when people brag about how awesome their kid is doing and my 18 month old is nowhere near that, or is, but their child is a quarter his age. It is tough because I am a flawed human being. But then God steps in and reminds me to a) quit swearing, b)grow up, I am a mom c)focus on Him d)focus on Him - yes, he says that twice
Okay, here goes my description of where Cal is at: He points and babbles, he mimics A LOT, he rocks on all 4's, he laughs more, he has a stronger/longer attention span for books, he says "ada" and signs "all done" but don't get me wrong he has no clue to use that when he is all done because he randomly does it or mimics me but I'll take what I can get, he dances, he drives cars on his dads leg after his dad shows him, he stacks this stacker but again I'm not saying he stacks all of them and in the right spot but he can put one or two on and not just throw them, and I know there is more but he is always here so I do not notice all the changes but I know they are there and I am loving it! (talk about run-on sentences)
It was hard to teach Cal things when he didn't respond. I need that reinforcement and now I am getting it!
Pictures from today...
Nolan helped make a fun video that I intend to share soon :)
Nolan and I had some quality time while the Q slept.
Gotta love diapers.com!